So i suppose i better introduce myself... Sophie, 22, Gemini, Support Worker, Uni Student, Obese, Unfit, Binge Eater, Lover of Crisps, Lover of Food Period, Serial Yo-Yo Dieter... Hense why i am in this mess!
I have been trying to lose the LBS for over a year... i do really well, lost a stone, gain a stone, lose a stone, gain a stone... BUT ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
I weighed myself today... and i wasn't impressed with what i saw... 18st 4lb! last time i weighed myself i was over half a stone lighter than i am now. OK i've had a tough few months; i wont bore you with details, but this isn't who i am. I don't feel as big as i am... But the scales don't lie!
I have made a pact to myself, to the people i love, that i will lose this weight, because i want to be able to walk into stores such as River Island, Topshop, Urban Outfitters etc... and pick out whatever i want, without getting the cold sweat on knowing it won't fit! I also want to walk without feeling like im suffering a heart attack... I want to run, I want to feel good in myself, I want to make everyone proud... and I want to look in the mirror without wondering where that extra stretch mark came from...
Those are the things i do want... but there are the things i dont....
- I don't want to dread shopping trips with my friends who buy all these gorgeous and fab outfits; and they don't go into my size.
- I don't want to dread that "lets go out this weekend" because the nightmare of getting ready, looking at myself, feeling horrendous in clothes that look big enough to be bedsheets, crying and getting into bed making some ridiculous excuse why i can't make it out!
- I dont want to live in denial... Its about time i faced this battle head on!
- and... I do not want to be everyones fat friend, the biggest out of everyone, and the fat girl that has a good sense of humour... because although i am pretty funny... i no longer want to be part of the stereotype of the fat funny friend.
I have tried Weight Watchers, which worked pretty well for me; but i have been away a lot and i am not ready to face the whole group thing again just yet... Ive also tried slimming world, which was a disaster... so now im doing it at home, eating well, exercise; all that jazz without the £5 a week membership fee. I will be weighing myself on my Nintendo Wii Fit... ( i know alot of people have different views on the scales.. but i use it all the time, i love some of the games for weight loss you can get on there, and i love how it tracks progress)
So here it goes... my first day of blogging.. my first day of the rest of my life (i love a cheesy line...)
Advice... Support... All is Welcome
Tomorrow i will put a picture of myself on here as i am now... (dreading this...)
Sophie
<3 x
Good luck! You have taken the first step! Can't wait to follow your journey :) x
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